Sunday, August 7, 2011
From studying to ranting
Well, yes. I really should be because I have a test in Hematology this coming Monday and Microbiology this Tuesday. Ugh. Sundays are supposed to be rest days and not an extension of school days! :((
Anyway, this weekend is not really a good one. Why?
- I got sick. Sore throat sucks. I blame you, Streptococcus. :(
- Chapter reviews are getting longer and longer which means more reviewers to be made.
- I was supposed to go home this weekend but I can't. Hematology and Microbiology ruled it out for me. Thanks a lot.
- Incoming preliminary exams. I don't know if I'm getting ahead or what. I'm fucking worried about my grades.
- The remaining days I have with him is bugging me a lot. We have 11 days left. Sigh. Oh hail, forbidden love.
Yes, I got sick. It's ironic that I'm taking up a course related to avoiding many kinds of illnesses but I get to acquire something every other week. And I hate myself for that. But it's good that I get this kind of situation (sometimes) because I get to use my Pharmacology-learned concepts. That includes erythromycin, paracetamol, salbutamol and guaifenesin. =))
Chapter reviews getting longer and longer and longer and did I mention longer? I can't help it if I have this study habit of reading the chapter as a whole then go over it again by highlighting it with my ever-trusty pink highlighter. After rigorous highlighting, I'll rewrite it in a yellow/white pad paper then read it after. I even manage to read it before my exam even though my head is already tired of going over it for how many times already. Tapos with limited time pa because I still have to review for another quiz. Life is so hard when you're not used to making sacrifices most of the time. I wasn't able to go home this weekend too. Mama was asking if I'll go home the other day but I told her I can't because I have to review. Eh I told her na I will really go home so that I could tell Mr. Carpenter what designs I would like for my room in our new house. I'm really missing out on family days.
I think on the 22nd of August, our preliminary exams will push through. Not sure though. Parang every two months kami nagbo-board exam. Nakakabobo. It's hard to adjust, really. I just keep on telling to myself that I should do my best so that in the end, I would still feel accomplished or whatever that feeling is. :))
Okay, something about my lovelife again. Many of my friends have been telling me na "Minalas ka lang ngayon." "Marami pa dyan." "Wag na kasi Chinese!" (I find this one racist. lol) and the classic, "Wag ka na mag-asawa!" Usually, I'd just shrug off those comments pero ngayon kasi, sobrang effort ang ginawa ko to make this relationship work out with my family and friends. Sadly, I'm getting nothing in return because, well, of a very obvious reason.. I'm not Chinese and never will be. And I thought this "Forbidden Love" happens only in TV dramas. I never expected it would happen to me. So last night, I've thought of it with all the experiences I've gathered and concluded that I really have to let go of him. I'm not used to giving up things that I've worked hard for but for selfless love to prevail, I must learn the ways of it. Understanding is the key to make way of solutions. Solutions that will be good for the both of us. But I still can't see the good in it. Nonetheless, being strong also has its limitations. It hurts but it's part of growing up. I hope the remaining 11 days would be memorable.Chapter reviews getting longer and longer and longer and did I mention longer? I can't help it if I have this study habit of reading the chapter as a whole then go over it again by highlighting it with my ever-trusty pink highlighter. After rigorous highlighting, I'll rewrite it in a yellow/white pad paper then read it after. I even manage to read it before my exam even though my head is already tired of going over it for how many times already. Tapos with limited time pa because I still have to review for another quiz. Life is so hard when you're not used to making sacrifices most of the time. I wasn't able to go home this weekend too. Mama was asking if I'll go home the other day but I told her I can't because I have to review. Eh I told her na I will really go home so that I could tell Mr. Carpenter what designs I would like for my room in our new house. I'm really missing out on family days.
I think on the 22nd of August, our preliminary exams will push through. Not sure though. Parang every two months kami nagbo-board exam. Nakakabobo. It's hard to adjust, really. I just keep on telling to myself that I should do my best so that in the end, I would still feel accomplished or whatever that feeling is. :))
I am also in need of prayers to survive this week and the upcoming weeks, of course. :)
"Success is how high you bounce when you hit bottom." - George S. Patton
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