Prolonged yearning

Making these kind of posts are nostalgic, at the same time, depressing. As much as I want to forget certain events, suppression is not really in my vocabulary. Anyway, here it goes. I used Facebook's Timeline feature, Twitter and of course, my handy-dandy Starbucks Planner 2011! HA! I will discuss some of the events that took place in each month, so that would be twelve months, of course. And in every ending, I will rate it as GOOD or BAD. But that will not determine on how much this year affected and changed me.

JANUARY 2011
I was an excited sophomore because in just five months, I'll be on my junior year in my course. I also started watching one of my favorite British series, Misfits. Jeremy recommended it to me. Love life was blooming, yes. I get so stressed easily too. But I realized just this first semester of my junior year, that my second semester of my sophomore year was the CHILL semester. I got my high school yearbook during this month too. God, I swear I looked bad back there. And did I tell you about my NSTP fieldwork? Our facilitator plus NSTP-mates left us. Not even noticing that we weren't in our seats back in the bus. How I hate my Dora-look-alike facilitator. Good thing our leader has the number of our facilitator and called her. Oh, the shame! But it was really our facilitator's fault. Hahaha! Last but not the least, UST was celebrating its quadricentennial year. I'm a proud tigress!
RATING: GOOD

FEBRUARY 2011
"Bonjour! Je m'appelle Nikka. J'ai 17 ans. J'habite Rizal." The month I learned basic French phrases. Thank you, Jeremy! This was also the time I got to memorize a friggin' Biochemistry song. Well.. Because of a major Biochemistry test, of course!

Haters get mad 'cause I got DNA polymerase. Central dogma song!

And most people dubbed February as the Love month.. Well, of course, love life was blooming. I didn't expect much since me and Deric were still not committed to each other sooooo.. NAH. Hahaha! But he still remembered to call me and that was when me and my blockmates were having lunch. They were teasing me and all. *MALANDI* That call kept me energized for one week. Exaggeration but true. Look what love can do to me! I can convert it to inspiration. Hahaha!
This month was also Camella's birthday/debut month. Fairy-themed, by the way. With the wings and all. Haha! One of the best debuts I have ever attended because the place is just so breathtaking. I really wish I could go back there. Very relaxing, indeed.
Oh and February 18, I finally said yes to Deric. Hahaha! It's hard to court a girl for four long months, yanno. *Butterflies in my stomach all over again!*
RATING: GOOD


MARCH 2011




My awesomest birthday/debut month!! We decided to hold the event in Ibarra located at Quezon Avenue. We chose that place because Ibarra is my father's client which means a discount for us. And since I have a twin, that will mean double the number of guests. I admit, it's very stressful to organize an event such as this. Your guests not confirming to your invitation, finalizing the lists (18 roses, 18 treasures, etc.), making follow-up requests to the event place for additional food and guests. It was stressful, really. But all was worth it. March 27th, one of the most memorable days of my life. I will forever treasure this day. Our first month together. Hehe.
RATING: GOOOOOOOOD!!


APRIL 2011
As you all know, every end of the semester comes the storm. *I made that quote up. Hahaha!* But I swear, April is the month where your future will depend on. Thank God, I passed all my subjects and I got a really high GWA. A really good school year for me. I also made up my mind that I should really try cosplaying someday. And my target is Saber, Fate/Extra version. Haha! Soon enough! My father's side also invited us for a hike in the mountain. Ever felt that feeling that one wrong step in that steep mountain will result to your death. A real adrenaline rush! But when we arrived at the top of the mountain, it was very rewarding. Also, we swam in the river near our place. Relaxing and fun!

RATING: GOOD


MAY 2011
One of worst months of my 2011 ever! This month is related to this post. I was tasked to be a Hermana along with the other Hermanas and Hermanos. Not that I don't like the duty I was given, the people, especially my fellow Hermana and Hermano, were great. The thing I didn't like was the church people who kept on telling us that they were "guiding" us. But in reality, they're just making things complicated for us and the people. I really hated the head parish priest because he kept on nagging about the essence of the Santacruzan and Flores de Mayo. WE KNOW THAT. It's just that he makes last-minute changes to our finalized plans. If only you know how much I had to extend my patience for them. I also had to work for strangers because they were also involved in the said events. But I learned how to multitask with the help from our Hermana Mayor. I really love her! She helped me make it through the difficult and stressful tasks.
RATING: BAD


JUNE 2011
Wow, start of my junior year came so fast. I already felt stressed that time. I guess it was hard for me to adjust to the third year life. I also cried in my first Hematology Lab class, seeing those syringes and needles being demonstrated. Take note, that was only a video. Subject requirements also got more difficult than expected. I always fell flat on the floor whenever I come home. My classes always started at 7 am and ends at 7 pm. Oh the first semester life, what a great start! Aaaand, congratulations to the Dallas Mavericks for winning the 2011 NBA Championship against Miami Heat! Yaaaaay! In yo face, Lebron!
RATING: BAD


JULY 2011
I was still complaining about having only 4-5 hours of sleep for a 10-12 hour class day. Those were the 'baby' days. Hahaha! This was the month were we first experienced how to make agars and wear very protective laboratory suits. We were dealing with real bacteria so that was really a requirement. And this was Harry Potter month too. well, for me it is. I will always love Snape's story.
About my love life, well, it was starting to go downhill. I felt it coming but I didn't know it would happen real soon.
RATING: BAD


AUGUST 2011


My first time to do an actual blood extraction, open/syringe method using a 3cc with a bore size of 23. The feeling was scary and exciting. I felt like a real Medical Technologist. After that day, I was ready to say goodbye to my fear of syringes. I'm giving you a hint already that this is the worst month of 2011 ever. Aug 15th, me and Deric decided to end it. Heartbreaking, seriously. Long story. But for those who know our status back then, you'll understand. Oh, the misery. Huhu.
RATING: BAD


SEPTEMBER 2011
My moving-on-but-failed-really-hard month. Hahaha! I was kinda failing my tests, yes. Doing really bad in my social and academic tasks. I guess it's an effect of the breakup. Still crying at night, thinking that it's really my fault. This is related to this one and another one. A lot of people still comforting me. Well, you know how post-breakups go. Enough with love life thing, this was also the month where Stef had to migrate to California with her family. A sad event for the kada. We bid our "see you's" *because we know she will still come back here to the Philippines* last September 25th during her despedida.

RATING: BAD


OCTOBER 2011
October is like April. You will go insane first before you get to see your grades. The first semester was nerve-wracking, as in. I fucking cried the day I saw my grades. That day proved me that God will always give the miracles you deserve at the right time. He's always there for you. Trust him, He'll never let you down. Academically tired, I was also emotionally distressed. I had to distract myself. I needed to do it. It's not doing me any good. So during the semestral break, I bough a lot of books, watched a lot of anime, went out with my best friend, Alyssa and with the kada. We actually had a house party in our house wherein Katy Perry's Last Friday Night (TGIF) can really fit into. We were all wasted and I wasn't able to remember anything the day after.
RATING: GOOD


NOVEMBER 2011
Oh damn, second semester. Game on, bitchizzz. Good thing the first semester put me on a lot of pressure because it really helped me. A little adjustment was still needed but it was manageable. New subjects shocked me because of the professors. I already met some of them last semester but I never knew having them in other subjects will make the discussions harder. Example is Hematology Lecture class, oh the torture! Hematology Lecture class last semester was easy as pie but this semester, it's like a trip to hell! Blood Banking stressed me out too because of the new professor. I did not know her teaching style yet. Mahirap mangapa, ika nga. But all is well since I'm used to the lifestyle of a junior Medical Technology student. Multiple quizzes a day, 2-3 hours for a single subject in a day, perfecting laboratory techniques, and balancing five excruciating subjects, all accompanied with lecture and laboratory. Oh, the third year life.
We also had our Pharmacy week during this month. Movies were the theme this year. We chose to imitate The Fast And The Furious: Tokyo Drift. Hahaha! It became familiar to the people because this soundtrack was playing:

DECEMBER 2011
Hmm... December? Still a love fool. Hahaha! Excited for Christmas break because it was two weeks away. I didn't go to UST Paskuhan 2011 since I was tired physically and emotionally. There were Christmas parties that I attended too. My Christmas feeling wouldn't be complete without it. One with Equinox and Kada Kantin. I missed their presence. Thank God, I got to talk to them before this year ends. And of course, Christmas with my family! That would be the best Christmas gift ever to me. I'm not that materialistic. Haha!

RATING: GOOD


So, that's a total of 7 GOOD's and 5 BAD's which means this was a good year for me! Coping up with the hard times were agonizing but I'm glad I got through it with the help of my family and friends. I wouldn't be as strong as now if it wasn't for them. Though I think I'm still waiting for something and I don't what that is. Hahaha! Come what may!
So, that's my year-ender blog post! Glad tidings to everyone and a prosperous New Year!