Prolonged yearning

We don't let go, we can't get close

I still need you, when you still need me

This tug of war can't go one anymore

Nobody wins from this misery, free

Well, oh can't you see, I wanna be, I want you to be, free

It's been months and I want to erase this feeling. I want to run away from it but it keeps coming back. Like shackles of eternal yearning, I can't break away. This has got to be the longest moving on phase I've ever experienced and it's still ongoing. God, help me.

It's typical for me to build my walls again fortified with pride. It's all about give and take. I learned how to distract myself from all those heartbreaking sacrifices. I had to assume this nonchalant position to avoid exerting more pain to my recovering soul. I may look indifferent but I did face episodes of regrets too. Yet, if I lose my stand, I'll also lose my stable position. I want to look strong so that you'll think I made the right decision to make you happy and free. Yes, I can function well without you but inside, I know you know it's happening, I'm really struggling.